You Can Either
Laugh or Cry, Either Way Giggle Your Way Through
My
motto in life has always been you can either laugh or cry, so you might as well
laugh even if you do it through your tears. Therefore, I’ve always giggled through
my obstacles even if I feel like crying.
This mantra in life has given me the desire to encourage and bear other
people’s burdens, but it also has caused me to have difficulty in being
vulnerable. I mean I of course discuss
my fears and doubts with my family and close friends, but that’s about as far as
it goes. When it comes to having MAGIS
Syndrome, I need to be positive and upbeat no matter what because God is
healing me from this disease and someday I know He will completely heal
me. I have a wonderful life, God has
given me so many blessings, and He’s opening so many doors so why should I
unload on people about the hardships I’m presently going through?
This
week I have decided to be vulnerable with you all because I’ve realized one way
to be more than my mountains is knowing when I need people to pray for me. The last part of this week has been a rough
one. Don’t get me wrong, I’ll still giggle my way through it, but knowing my
readers are praying for me will be such an encouragement.
Next
week I’ll be at The National Institutes of Health, (NIH) for my 10th
visit. Normally, I love these trips to
the NIH, I find out new things about MAGIS Syndrome and my doctors talk about
how they can’t get over how well I’m doing.
This next week will be a little different because I have to have a
procedure done where they will do an upper endoscopy, liver biopsy, and check
the portal pressures in my liver. Nothing
is wrong, they just like to do check-ups on my liver every four to five
years. What may surprise you to know is
with all I have been through one of the things I dread the most is anesthesia. I’m claustrophobic and being forced to be put
to sleep is one of the worst ways to feel claustrophobic. I feel so smothered I even fight the anesthesia. The last time I had a procedure at the NIH I
fought the anesthesia so bad they gave me enough anesthesia to knock out a
horse, which is as comical as it is ridiculous.
Because
a biopsy is being done on my liver I have had to stop taking any aspirin, NSAIDS
and blood thinners for a week before my procedure to prevent any bleeding. I
take ibuprofen every night for my arthritis and also helps with the
inflammation in my sinuses, which I’ve really needed lately because of our bazaar
Ohio weather. On Wednesday, I had to stop
taking Ibuprofen and since then I’ve dealt with stiff joints, restless bouts of
sleep in the night because of the stiff joints, and a migraine. It was extremely difficult to have to fight
the migraine without any medication, the pain is gone and now I’m only dealing
with extreme sinus pressure and I thank God, He took it away.
I
know this week my blog post is extremely short because I don’t have the brain or
energy to write a long piece with my thoughts.
However, I think this is a good thing because God is showing me it’s a
strength to ask for prayers. So, I ask
for your prayers. I ask you to pray for my
psoriatic arthritis and my joints to loosen up this next week despite not being
able to take Ibuprofen. I ask you to
pray for my sinuses, that God will alleviate the pressure and I don’t have any
more migraines. I ask you to pray God
gives me peace and calms my heart and mind as I am put to sleep for this
procedure. Lastly, I ask you to pray my
doctors will continue to marvel at the miracle God is performing in my body.
I
can’t even tell you how much I appreciate your prayers and your support. As for me, I will continue to giggle my way
through my trials, but I will do so with a much lighter heart knowing you are
praying for me.
